ORIGINS: The Curious Sex Bunny
My Oriental Origin
Dear Diary,
Every great story has its origins.
But when a girl carries so many stories within her…
Which one is truly the first?
The very day that tilted my world off its axis－ when my life began drifting away from the path every little girl is told she should follow. Which led me down a rabbit hole like curious little Alice wandering into Wonderland.
Well, that shall be a secret slowly revealed to the curious few…
If you have what it takes to stick through these novels of mine.
All of us have our own secrets.
Most origin stories are buried beneath pain. Layers of memories that takes time to name. Sometimes a lifetime to even recognize.
Perhaps this is my way of healing…
Turning it all into a beautiful chaos.
HER WORLD
The Fallen Glass Heel
Sometimes I wonder if Princes know what’s like to stand in our shoes heels.
Sometimes I wonder if other Cinderellas lived through the same despairs as I did.
We live in a digital era, scrolling hours of social media contents since year 2020. Yet topics that pulls the strongest on our heartstrings, one about love and lust, becomes a taboo subject.
So I write.
Before I leave this secret world behind— A hidden dimension of society.
I feel compelled to bridge the gaps we were never taught to see.
Claimed by the Future
When you know with certainty what your future will demand of you…
Because some ambitions seek the highest level of devotion very few are willing to carry, it can make your shoulder feel heavy but alive and purposeful.
When you answer your life’s calling, it feels as though every atomic particle of yours have consented to being fully merged with the universe itself. The price for that full life is not having much time for romance and pleasure (Though I could be wrong about that).
So in the meantime, before that grand day arrives, what kind of pleasure would a young girl choose to explore in her youth?
HIS WORLD
Secrets Men Shared
After becoming a Sex Bunny, I spent nights lying on the same bed as my LOVERS™, listening to their confessions.
About the struggles they face while dating.
About the drift that grows within their marriages.
I was often surprised by what I heard.
If only she understood the mind of a man, perhaps divorce would not be seen as the only solution. Maybe she would realise that ‘Happily Ever After’ has always been a dance for two.
“Happily Ever After has always been a dance for two.”
Here is the secret:
Men and women often seek the same thing…
To feel desired.
But they measure it using different metrics.
Dear Boys
If only they learned how to treat a woman right from the lips of a lady rooted in femininity rather than from bitter men who shout the loudest while possessing the least wisdom and respectable character…
Love would feel less like a game to win and more like something to understand.
Perhaps they would have found their happiness much sooner.
THE BUNNY WORLD
Fuck Buddies & FWB
In my Millenial-Gen Z era, intimacy became casual.
We choose someone we find quite attractive (ideally). Then we create funny terms like “No strings attached” and “Friends with benefits”－ Just to convince ourselves we were unaffected by it.
With those distancing labels, something quietly faded…
Depth of genuine connection.
Basic care & concern.
Meaning of love.
The endless choices of matches came with a strange emptiness— as if we were free to experience everything and everyone, yet it feels so unfulfilling.
Modern Dating Apps
Dating Apps, be it Tinder or Hinge, most lads see it as an opportunity for free sex, with an unspoken timeline of 2 dates. Otherwise you won’t hear from them again. Most of the handsome matches are too cowardly or busy (humping other girls) to ask you out for date.
If there is a date, they prefer to meet in a loud bar to get you drunk than the choice of a nice cafe, restaurant or even a simple activity together.
Sugar Dating
Ahhh..
The infamous paid intimacy with older wealthy men disguised as a temporary relationships lavished with luxury dinners and branded goods.
Sugar Daddy wannabes pretends to be wealthy, tricking teenagers who has yet to learn the real value of money. A hive for perverts, sociopaths and psychopaths to ruin young girl’s life before any dollar is even given at the mercy of the perpetrators.
The platform that bans escort profiles yet the young sugar babies ends up becoming one unknowingly through those ‘Pay Per Meet’ payment model than the original monthly allowances (Disguised as worry over scams). The tears and confusion those poor girls would soon end up in… adding more stories that floods the walls of Reddit.
Frankly speaking, the reality turns out to be more of a one-sided extraction than the glittering luxurious exchange society had marketed it to be.
BUNNY LAND™
Which eventually led me to a final world called BUNNY LAND™－ my last naughty playground.
The one most misunderstood and least appreciated by society. Where the world condemned it in the name of protecting women, yet quietly create ripples of consequences very few politician are willing to confront.
The contradiction of… feminine sovereignty.
Have you ever wondered what truly lies in that forbidden world?
LEGACY
Before Acension
One day, when I become a Queen in the eyes of society shaped by success, social status, and recognition…
I hope I do not forget this world.
I hope I do not become distant.
But instead someone who understands deeply because she once immersed herself in it. She wore many different shoes before she had to wear different hats.
Gaps in Society
Growing up as an Asian girl in Singapore, neither our world class education nor family ever wanted to speak openly about the real dangers of playing with fire where sex is involved－ whether entangled with love, lust or money.
“This is how to put on a condom” is about as far as the lesson goes. Often accompanied by nervous girly giggles and macho cheers in the classroom. Yet in real life, the consequences aren’t as funny.
Tears and anguish for her.
Shame and guilt for him.
Or the premature end of a small life because somewhere out there, a boy believes that raw pleasure and cream pies is more important than being a responsible man.
Who can these girls ever look up to as they step into their blossoming years?
How can young men learn what is real masculinity?
The growing distance between Mars and Venus has quietly turned love into a battlefield.
Who is willing to speak the uncomfortable truths others avoid?
Yours Truly
What was once my pain and curious adventure, has become a lesson and fading memory I now choose to share with the world.
What you choose do with it…
Is your choice.